I spent Saturday sleeping, and watching Game of Thrones, my new addiction. Today, I finished watching all of the episodes that have come out. For anyone who’s grieving, isn’t it a relief to get caught up in a great series (be it TV or book), and let your mind fly into other worlds for a time? Game of Thrones has taken me somewhere else, and I’m extremely grateful for that. Unfortunately, when I look back on my love for this series, it’s going to be all mixed up in this time of my life that is dark and sad, but I’ll love it no less for taking me away for a little while.
The same thing happened two years ago when I went through an extremely difficult time (relationship issues) and found Lost, the TV series. Unfortunately for me, the series had just ended, but fortunately for me I was able to watch all 6 seasons back to back and read commentary and discussions on old websites the whole way through. It was the only thing, the only thing, that made that hard time bearable for me, and to this day I remember Lost as if it was an angel watching over me, not just a TV show.
Besides finishing the show, I also had a lovely surprise guest at my door this morning and spent the day with the person I love. It wasn’t a perfect day, because I’m not pregnant, because Avalon’s gone, and therefore no day will ever be whole or perfect again. But it was a day that was better than most, and I can definitely be grateful for that.
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