how can it be?
That a mother could lose so much.
Kate Leong’s story. (She is now about to lose her fourth child, but this time her firstborn, 5-year-old Gavin.)
I watched the video she made of her daughter Darcy, who was just a little smaller than Avalon when she was born. Her little face was so unique and precious. Just like Avalon’s. I wish now I had all of the photos they had thought to take. I never thought to take any, at all. I was in a total haze. When I see photos of other moms holding their dead babies, I see myself more completely than if I had looked into a mirror.
The pain and devastation that freeze your features into place.
Today I’m going to cry, because none of this is right. Because some days I know how to go on, but today I don’t.
Today I don’t know how to live without Avalon.
Categories: baby loss