The baby won’t stop crying. It started last night. She doesn’t sleep. Like ever. Today, for example she slept for 15 minutes, twice. She will stop crying to eat, sometimes. Then start again. She didn’t cry at all the first two days. Yes, we have tried everything under the sun. I have googled and googled. My mom can sometimes make her stop by jiggling her. It’s only temporary. She gets really stiff. She’s inconsolable.
I know that she is transitioning. She has been through so much more than she ever should have in 6 weeks of life. She is grieving and she is insecure. I don’t blame her for her outrage.
But I feel like a failure and like I’m breaking down. No sleep at all and working two 12 hour shifts in a row, I’m just sitting here crying. I’m not a good mom, that’s how I feel. I can’t make it better. No matter how much I research and how many techniques I try, she doesn’t feel better.