one year

Thank you for all the well wishes and sympathetic thoughts today. Here are photos from sunset at the cemetery. I stood at her grave and the only words that would come to me (through tears) were, “I’m sorry.” Because no matter what anyone says, my body failed her, failed to keep her alive until she could stay alive on her own. It wasn’t my fault in the sense that it wasn’t my choice, but I know the fault lies with me. She was perfect. I know things don’t work that way, in the grand scheme of the universe, but I am sorry anyway.

I am just so sorry.








Categories: baby loss


  1. You’ve done such a good job at honoring and remembering Avalon’s life, creating a space for her, and loving her. Thank you for sharing parts of this with us.

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