feeling down about adoption
When TPR happened in January, I was told over and over how “quick” this adoption would be compared to most. I was optimistic that by summer, I’d finally be my girl’s legal mom. Now? I’m hoping cautiously that it will take place in 2014. I’m not even confident that I’ll get a court date in the current calendar year, and am now accepting that I may need to do a “paper adoption” if I want to accomplish this. (They would finalize the adoption and mail me the papers, there would be no court ceremony.) I’d be a little bummed to not do the court ceremony, but I’d be way more upset if this adoption dragged on into winter. We can always just get the papers and have a party. I am already her mom and she is already my daughter in the most important ways. We will mark the day and celebrate it, even if it isn’t in court with a judge.
There is nothing worse than knowing that if your child is in the hospital, or has a relative who gets a good lawyer and suddenly wants her, you are majorly fucked. It’s the worst feeling.