my happy ending

It’s been one month here in the city by the sea. Where was I before I came here? My memories feel dimly lit. A haze of pain, disappointment, restlessness, and melancholy clings to them. A fog drifts through and covers them. What is there to look back at?

Happiness feels so much less inspiring when it comes to writing. And so very much more private. Pain is universal, pain is something I could shout out to the world, and all of your echoes back to me eased the ache. But happiness? It’s just so intensely mine. I couldn’t possibly fling it out here so recklessly.

And so, it seems I’ve found my path, and it wasn’t anything like what I thought it would be. It’s more perfect than that. Life as a blogging single mom traveler enticed me because it meant I’d be out there, away, anywhere but where I was. But now? I like where I am. I am home. My life branches out before me, full of all the promises that used to ring empty. Every where I turn to look feels bright and hopeful. It’s dazzling, how quickly that all changed. And all I did was jump… jump right out of the old and into the new. My faith has paid off.

Thank you to all of the bloggers over the years that kept me sane. Thank you for your likes and comments. Thank you for the posts on your own blogs that gave me a sense of community. Thank you for this space, a place of expression and venting and healing.

May your journeys all be blessed.

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5 Comments »

  1. So glad you are enjoying your time out west! I hope your mom is settling in as well. Hope you don’t stop blogging! I love reading about your fun adventures with M!

  2. GOOD GLORY!!! I hope this isn’t an end to you blogging. Like Katie am crossing my fingers your mother is settling in well. Do you think you might be able to extend your current position for longer? Because you haven’t yet seen the nice weather in SF. And you all should. SO glad the huge leap of faith is working out well for you. MUCH JOY to you all.

  3. Nooooo, i will MISS hearing about your life adventures and hearing your incredible perspectives on being!! Please say it isn’t so…

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