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“So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.”
― Christopher McCandless “Into the Wild”

All My Pretty Ones

In 2011 I began my parenting journey as a single mother by choice, and what an adventure it turned out to be! I completed foster care licensing in 2011, and had my first placement with me in 2012. I also became pregnant with a known sperm donor, but lost the baby in December of 2012 after a full placental abruption brought on preterm labor. I named her Avalon.

In 2013 my daughter M was born, and her adoption was finalized in August of 2014! I attempt to keep ties with her biological family and help her to work through attachment issues. Being her mom has opened up the world to me in ways I never could have imagined, and together we are going to travel the world, explore the planet, avoid formal schooling, delve into positive parenting/gentle discipline, attempt to eat more naturally, and dive into whatever other ideas and adventures this world throws our way.

Mom, nurse, book worm, lake dweller, world traveler, cat lover... and a few other things from time to time

Mom, nurse, book worm, lake dweller, world traveler, cat lover… and a few other things from time to time

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  1. Wow. I’m so very, very sorry. I can’t imagine…

    I lost my beautiful Maia Rose at 33 weeks on December 2, 2012. They couldn’t find a heartbeat… just like that. 48 hours before, everything was great. And then, on that Sunday, everything wasn’t, and never would be again. So, I am familiar with that constant, never ending chant. I don’t think it will ever actually end- there may be times when I can’t hear it as loudly (it ranges from being so loud I can feel the vibrations, to ambient noise in the background of watching my other kids do their thing), but it never goes away.

    I understand the need to have another baby around. Four days after Maia was born, I asked for my 9 month old grandson (my husband’s a good bit older than me) to come over. And it was so healing. When he napped, I help him and just cried. I felt so much better after that, and I suspect that after you spend some time with him, some part of your heart won’t feel as raw.

    I think you’re so strong to claim motherhood and parenting on your own. I wish you the best of luck, and beautiful rainbows.

  2. I’m so very sorry.

    Your dear little daughter, Avalon. So very wanted and surrounded by love for her whole life.

    I wish that she were here, enjoying all the wonderful love that still continues for her.

  3. I’m so very sorry for your recent loss of your precious Avalon. I love her name… it’s beautiful and the meaning is perfect. I can tell in your words how much she was wanted and how greatly she is loved. I lost my son last July at 29 weeks and it’s still so hard living without him, but every day I do find a little bit of healing and hope. Wishing you peace and comfort ❤

  4. My little boy is alive. He’s 3, wild and amazing. He’s not birth son, I just raised him for more than 2 years. I’ve always said h chose me to be his mama.
    I know exactly what you mean about life being divided into before and after. Mine was January 10th. His birth father decided to end all communication between my son and I. I’ve somehow survived for more than a month without him. I still have no idea how.
    I miss my baby.

  5. I am a single night-shift ED nurse looking to start the foster care process. Finding your blog and learning about … everything that you’ve gone through and are still going through has been inspirational and just what I needed. I’ve wanted to foster-to-adopt for a long time but I finally feel like I’m in a place where it is do-able. Thank you for sharing your journey.

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